Nothing Gradual in Graduating

Today, the Kid graduated from her elementary school (it goes to 4th grade here, then to middle school). She’d gone to this same school five years, since kindergarten, probably the longest she’ll ever go to the same school God willing, she won’t become a 5th year college grad.

She had the annual tug-o-war…
4th grade tug-o-warand the “moving up” assembly…4th grade moving up assembly
ending with her…officially graduated.

Some may complain that this generation of kids gets way too much acknowledgement, awards for showing up at school, ribbons for participating in your third soccer game. No one applauded the end of my 4th grade or 5th grade or 6th grade.

Even if these moments are the equivalent of a torturous Barbara Walters interview (“that must have been hard, losing your dad at 3…”) and I’ve run through my allotment of Kleenex, I’m glad we’re stopping to notice. I’m glad someone is making us stop and pay attention to this milestone.

How many have we buzzed by in this kid’s 9 years? And how many more will we, accidentally or because we’re tired or busy or preoccupied or stressed out?

No, I say let’s all take a break from our personal, inner world of drama and our busybusybusy and focus our eyeballs on what’s happening right in front of us, in our very homes and neighborhoods: a kid graduated, a dog napped more, a baby napped less, a friend moved, a teen took drivers ed, a grandparent slowed down, a cat didn’t come home, even a tree didn’t sprout leaves like it used to.

Time marches on. You can squeeze your eyes shut, walk your feet faster, fill that calendar as much as you want or you can take long baths, plan big, slow vacations or breath in as deeply as you want. Time? Still marching on.

But if we’re all left feeling like spectators, let’s at least take a moment to do just that – spectate. With eyes and hearts wide open, we can watch and see and soak it up until we’re fully saturated and leaking out our eyes and cannot soak up anymore.

No, it doesn’t feel gradual at all. It may have slowly crept up on us, predictably coming along, but then BLAMMO, we’re hit right in our sweet spot. Ready or drunk not.

Leaving us happy and sad and proud and fully and completely saturated.
final bus ride
Congratulations, all you graduates out there! You are loved!

Writing and Judging and Judging Writing

The older I get, the more I see how subjective everything is so many things are in life. Even when you can “document” the facts, people make up their own version science comes out with evidence that what you are looking at is effected by the fact you are looking at it …and cue my head exploding now.

So it shouldn’t surprise me and yet I’m surprised that reactions to my own creative writing are varied and that the three pieces I submitted to a 10 minute play festival got scored in an order I never would have anticipated. What I would have placed as weakest, in fact placed first.

Am I so off on my understanding of plays, or my own writing? Am I too hard on myself or my drama? Is my style of comedy not that funny to others …and cue my writerly identity crisis?

And don’t misunderstand me. I am thrilled to be included in the festival and thrilled to see my words take life on stage.

I’m just confused about what words are going up there.

It’s a pleasant albeit a head-scratching surprise, like finding out your trouble-making kid is actually an awesome, responsible Eagle Scout and failed to inform you an unlikely surprise in my household.

Of course, the reverse has always been true: writing I thought was great/fascinating/smart/insert whatever you want in writing!, people say, “um, NO.”

Writers out there, I’d love to know if you have been surprised by positive reaction to work you didn’t think was that fabulous, work you weren’t sure about at all. Maybe this is some kind of learning moment for me??

If only I knew the lesson!